I’m finding it hard to get up every morning.
Not long ago I had a career I was proud of, I was in a great relationship with whom I thought to be “the one” and had clear future goals. Now I’m heartbroken, hating my job, and about to face what will be the hardest loss in my life.
Getting up every morning feels like mere survival.
As I’m trying to get through another day, I get the worst news I could have ever expected…
My life’s mentor, my best friend, the person I look up to the most has stage-4 cancer.
Doctors say there’s nothing to be done.
My entire universe crumbles
Just a few weeks later, I see him pass away. I’m broken.
My Dad is gone and I can’t get my head around it. It all happened so fast, it feels like a bad dream.
What happens with all we still wanted to do together? He was my compass.
I don’t know how to move on, but life goes on…
I go back to work wearing a tranquil look on my face, like I have it all together, but deep inside I’m completely lost.
Life hurts on every level.
THEN ONE DAY
I find a piece of paper I had taken from a notebook my dad kept at the hospital. In short, the note said… “I love my family. I love my life. I don’t want to die.”
Memories flash before my eyes. I remember all our conversations about ‘making it’ in life, traveling, building things together… I remember us dreaming about the future.
With tears running down my face, I realize… I don’t love my life, but I want to.
I want to love life the way he did and be as free as he was. I want to live as passionately as he did.
NEXT THING I KNOW
I’m leaving my 10-year corporate career, packing a small suitcase and leaving. No return date. I need to go find myself.
A year and a half later a pandemic hits, and I’m back in my hometown. Everything looks the same except for me. I’m not the same person anymore. I met the real me. One thing is clar now: When my day comes, I want to know that I did it all, that I lived and loved every day, that I was the best person I could be.
Second thing I know: My freedom is not negotiable. Freedom at mind, heart and spirit.
I have found my purpose, my path, and I am in for one hell of a ride!
And this is what fuels me today
I want to inspire you to get to know the real you. The raw, vulnerable, unique you! It is by knowing and accepting your true essence that you become your absolute best version and pick up the courage to go out there and live life like you only had one!
One of my favorite quotes from Spanish writer Pablo Arrivas says:
“Vive de manera que te duela marcharte” which translates into: “Live in such a way it hurts to leave.”
I don’t think my Dad ever read that quote, but it reminds me of him, and of my purpose.
Soulful entrepreneur, mindset strategist, and life coach.
I combine science based & spiritual practices to help women grow into their most authentic self and find their true path, to live boldly, freely and purposefully.
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